Don't Stop Believing

Seeing is Believing, and now I see my life is shit as.

Wow, I feel SO rejected honestly, I thought everywhere I went I was a third wheel, but NO~~~ of course not, why would i be a third wheel. Instead I realise that I'm just being rejected. It feels like, well no one wants to talk to me. I feel like my freinds, don't even want me there half the time. If my friends don't want me to stick around with them, then WTF am i here for? Seriously, I don't get it. I can't tell how my friends are feeling when I'm there. Do they like me? Do they think me as a friend? Do they loathe me? Do they just wish I didn't exist? Some conversations, I want to join, but it just feels like I shouldn't. I just feel so rejected between my friends somehow. What do i do? Is it me? Is it my actions? What the hell do I do, when my friends I have had all through school, seem like they don't want me as part of their "Group".


Alone... Confused. What do I do?

I don't want to lose my only friends. Friends... I changed my personality for them. WTF more can I do for them? Change my personality back? This isn't like one of those, "awww, I got friendzoned by the person I like" It's worse, it's like my friends just said to me "I'm sorry, we don't want you here anymore" I haven't been friendzoned, I've just been..... zoned...? I'm probably wrong about half of what I said up there, but... this is what a blog is for, just raging or talking to the internet. I really hope what I said is wrong.

Sometimes, Life is just a big dark hole
A hole you can't see the end of
You just can't see your goal

But when you throw a rock down,
And listen to it fall,
You really, won't frown,

Because seeing is believing.



Peace out girl scouts.

Wrathful Piggy in the Middle and Teachers

Oh wow,Piggy in the middle has never been so intense

Just had lunch, now in French lesson (FML). Sometimes, (I just really want to *strangle/murder/rage at*) my teacher. I swear to god, she cant do ANYTHING!! Bloodyhell she is so annoying. I know a few teachers who are worse than her but. OMFG she just...ARGHH!!!!! WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE THE RAGE THAT IS bubbling inside of me *sigh*. OMG LOL ONE OF MY FRIENDS JUST GOT TOLD OFF BY THE PRINCIPAL!!! Just proves how annoying this teacher is. You need to get a note to go anywhere in this school during classtime. And she doesn't give my friend a note, and then he gets told off by the principal. WOW. And she was right behind me as i just wrote this. She is blind. I hope she doesn't find out about this blog. I mean, it's not illegal but it could seriously damage my career, but. FUCK THAT SHIT IT WORTH RAGING OVER! I swear at her in Korean half the time in class and she doesn't know a single thing I'm saying. WOW.

Ahhh Foreign Languages, Gotta love it

I hate my life in French class. Ay least my friends have to endure this crap with me. WOW my friends just saying. "*INSERT NAME HERE* You're not satisfying her needs!!!" This has got to be the wierdest French lesson of all time.

Peace out girl scouts

*Correction* My friend here just stated that is was "*INSERT NAME HERE* You're not satisfying HIS needs"

Time Wasting. In School (Rebel~~~)

I am time wasting. IN SCHOOL! (I am such a REBEL~~~) XD

*Sigh* time in school to be using to write my Sose assignment due in.... a bit. Dying trying to find out about the Australian Suffragetts. I nthink thats how you spell it... Meh, Spelling is not important. As long as content is good, structure and other crap like that. I suck at essays. Feel free to help :D (not that you will). Jesus, i have absolutely no life. I mean, i could be using this time to write my really important i am talking about. I could be playing games in this time I am using to BLOG SO YEAH, YOU GUYS ARE MEANT TO FEEL SPECIAL! Really, i just want to screw this lesson over, it's lunch straight after this period so i can't be screwed to work right now. Besides, i just had PE and im bloody tired. Javelin, threw it pretty far, not that we recorded any of the scores. Ran out of time. FML Students always talking and real crap stuff like that. It sucks that we can't have varying times for subjects. Of course then they could extend the times for the core subjects and reduce time for lunch and recess, but they could (might, i fix myself) extend the time for PE, (I LOVE PE). Even though i like PE, i still fail

Just times like this when i know i'm not the only one who fails

Screwing stuff over and over again and hearing my name being called out; "Insert name of the writer here" (I did say i will remain anonymous,) Tripping over air, nearly letting go of the discus at my side (i managed to throw it properly though). I just basically fail at everything sporty. Except for maybe piggy in the middle. Wait, even at that i probably fail. Failing at piggy in the middle, is to be piggy a lot of times right? :P I suck.

I have nothing else to rage at now world, but really my skills at PE so

Peace out girl scouts

Third Wheeling and Problems

Hello World, this is me
I really need to rethink my starting lines...

Heya, You people who have never been an awkward third wheel, consider yourself lucky. (IT SUCKS BALLS!!!) Third wheeling, third wheeling.... everywhere i go, IM THE BLOODY AWKWARD THIRD WHEEL!!! Hey look my best frriend, Nope he's busy, Hey look another frien- ah, wait, he's occupied. Hey! Yeah, frie- Yeah fuck this shit. So Much THIRD WHEEL!!!

FML

Noone to talk to. but as I said, it lets me look at the bigger picture (I really mean the shitty aspect of having friends with relationships... I am such a hypocrite) Procrastination, is a good thing to be doing in your spare third wheeliness time. I get to really go deeper inside myself, try find that inner peace. Then i go say Fuck that shit and rage inside at every couple standing in a ten meter radius of me. But honestly, by now, i really couldn't care. All I want to do is just sit and think, and maybe (finally) come up with some sort of revolutionary design of car/vehicle or something that i've always wanted to invent. Maybe Something like tron... ;)

Well... Thats about my raging for today peoples. I know thers probably like, noone reading this but.

Peace out girl scouts.

Blogging

Hello world, half the time i really couldn't give a crap about you, so hello!

Hi, my name... will remain anonymous but there will be people who know me. ;)
This blog, i really just because i want to write one. Half the time i feel... like there is really no-one to talk to and well... i feel quite rejected. This does give me a lot of time to contemplate and think though, it's not a total loss. But really, i just want to see how the world reacts to my blogging and ranting. Basically, I'm taking my rage out on you world XD


Forever alone...

This.... is a really short blog post.. :P

See you later shitlords!

Peaceout girl scouts