Seeing is Believing, and now I see my life is shit as.
Wow, I feel SO rejected honestly, I thought everywhere I went I was a third wheel, but NO~~~ of course not, why would i be a third wheel. Instead I realise that I'm just being rejected. It feels like, well no one wants to talk to me. I feel like my freinds, don't even want me there half the time. If my friends don't want me to stick around with them, then WTF am i here for? Seriously, I don't get it. I can't tell how my friends are feeling when I'm there. Do they like me? Do they think me as a friend? Do they loathe me? Do they just wish I didn't exist? Some conversations, I want to join, but it just feels like I shouldn't. I just feel so rejected between my friends somehow. What do i do? Is it me? Is it my actions? What the hell do I do, when my friends I have had all through school, seem like they don't want me as part of their "Group".
Alone... Confused. What do I do?
I don't want to lose my only friends. Friends... I changed my personality for them. WTF more can I do for them? Change my personality back? This isn't like one of those, "awww, I got friendzoned by the person I like" It's worse, it's like my friends just said to me "I'm sorry, we don't want you here anymore" I haven't been friendzoned, I've just been..... zoned...? I'm probably wrong about half of what I said up there, but... this is what a blog is for, just raging or talking to the internet. I really hope what I said is wrong.
Sometimes, Life is just a big dark hole
A hole you can't see the end of
You just can't see your goal
But when you throw a rock down,
And listen to it fall,
You really, won't frown,
Because seeing is believing.
Peace out girl scouts.
Wow, I feel SO rejected honestly, I thought everywhere I went I was a third wheel, but NO~~~ of course not, why would i be a third wheel. Instead I realise that I'm just being rejected. It feels like, well no one wants to talk to me. I feel like my freinds, don't even want me there half the time. If my friends don't want me to stick around with them, then WTF am i here for? Seriously, I don't get it. I can't tell how my friends are feeling when I'm there. Do they like me? Do they think me as a friend? Do they loathe me? Do they just wish I didn't exist? Some conversations, I want to join, but it just feels like I shouldn't. I just feel so rejected between my friends somehow. What do i do? Is it me? Is it my actions? What the hell do I do, when my friends I have had all through school, seem like they don't want me as part of their "Group".
Alone... Confused. What do I do?
I don't want to lose my only friends. Friends... I changed my personality for them. WTF more can I do for them? Change my personality back? This isn't like one of those, "awww, I got friendzoned by the person I like" It's worse, it's like my friends just said to me "I'm sorry, we don't want you here anymore" I haven't been friendzoned, I've just been..... zoned...? I'm probably wrong about half of what I said up there, but... this is what a blog is for, just raging or talking to the internet. I really hope what I said is wrong.
Sometimes, Life is just a big dark hole
A hole you can't see the end of
You just can't see your goal
But when you throw a rock down,
And listen to it fall,
You really, won't frown,
Because seeing is believing.
Peace out girl scouts.
Hey buddy.
ReplyDeleteNo zonage from me. :P
"Hearing is beliveing, music is decieving," (Music of then Night, from Andrew Lloyd Webber's 'The Phantom of The Opera')
But a promise is still a promise and a friend is always a friend.
-Tegdyrb